Into my twenties

I’ve grown close to God. I’ve had my first job, then my second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth, ninth, tenth, eleventh. I’ve made many friends. I’ve questioned. I’ve been through junior high. I’ve graduated highschool. I’ve started university. I’ve lost faith. I’ve fallen in love. Twice. I’ve made awful decisions. I’ve felt heartbreak. I’ve lost my family. And gained them back and built a relationship stronger than I thought was possible. I’ve been scared. I’ve been lonely. I’ve been strong. I’ve ran away from home. I’ve moved out. I’ve cried. And cried. And cried. And cried. I’ve been introduced to the world. I’ve felt deja vu. I’ve been a good friend, and a bad one too. And I’ve been on the receiving end of both of those. I’ve lost touch. I’ve gotten piercings galore. I’ve learned. A lot. I’ve matured. I’ve changed perspective. Over and over again. I’ve been blinded. I’ve seen clearly. I’ve been manipulated. I’ve lost touch with God. I’ve opened my heart and I’ve opened my mind. Perhaps too widely, at times. I’ve found yoga. I’ve been touched. On so many different levels. I’ve loved. And loved. And loved. And loved. I’ve been hopeful. I’ve been hopeless. I’ve fallen in love with myself. I’ve known loss, due to death. I’ve travelled. I’ve tried to learn another language. I’ve found faith. I’ve lived in mud huts. I’ve surrendered. I’ve healed. I’ve found a place of peace. I’ve been lost. I’ve been treated badly. I’ve been unfair. I’ve known better. I’ve been too attached. I’ve felt indifferent. I’ve been judged. I’ve cut my hair short, grown it long, and changed the color many times. I’ve lost. I’ve won. I’ve been in a car accident. I’ve sailed. I’ve snorkelled. I’ve been in the ocean. I’ve pushed limits. I’ve pushed myself to limits. I’ve gained the ability to touch my toes. I’ve tried too hard. I’ve given up. I’ve lied. And lied. And lied. And have gained understanding and respect for the truth. I’ve gained acceptance of my body. I’ve been drunk. Too drunk. I’ve been sick. I’ve become vegetarian. I’ve found understanding and belief in rebirth. I’ve photographed. I’ve asked for forgiveness. I’ve been forgiven. I have forgiven. I’ve been sad. Really sad. I’ve made really amazing decisions. I’ve laughed. I’ve moved forward. I’ve also been stuck behind. I’ve grown. Mentally. Physically. Spiritually. I’ve been happy. Really happy. I’ve had my first kiss. I’ve made a fool of myself. (I hope) I’ve made someone proud. I’ve changed. And changed. And changed. I’ve become who I am today.

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